It is my distinct pleasure to bring you this powerful, moving & truly vulnerable piece from our Easton Brother Manny Ramsey!
My mother always taught me that I should use protection. She didn't like my lifestyle but guided me with wise direction.
But then I met him, I met him off of Jack'd
I didn’t see it comin, didn’t know my odds were stacked
It's fact this guy was poppin. Took me to clubs and paid for shopping.
It went on and on, no stopping. He was my bae, my barriers dropping
In love deeper than I'd ever been
And love is blind, and I was green
My heart beat loud like elephants
Played by his charm and elegance
Choked up like I was Hella bent.
I was in the moment, so he owned it.
He was my king and boy he throned it!
It was summer 2013
Love drunk, sipping on his morphine
I sang songs I never sung
Did things I’ve never done.
He was the one.
His love like two slugs of a double-barrel, longneck shot gun
We got tested the month before.
His health was good, mine spectacular
What else could I ask for?
It happened one day with him, my love distraction
Who would've thought this was my contraction
We parted ways just before Thanksgiving.
Too many issues with my friends, didn't like how he was living
Christmas 2013 and I was feeling less than festive
Body aches, shivers and shakes were already suggestive
Didn't wanna eat a thing, had to find the Doctor’s number
Dehydration, Doctor said, but “it” was waking from its slumber!
A few months later, I suffered from a simple boil
Who knew that this would lead to the root of the seed that was planted in my soil
I now have a “friend,” we weren’t friends when we first met
His name is HIV, a name I will never forget
I thought it was the end,
Reached out for Brenden’s helping hand
Thank god he was my friend
And I knew he'd understand
It is not a death sentence, that’s what he said
Hold ya head high, look to God, get on your meds!
March 4th and I’m a year pos
Seems like yesterday I didn’t know what all this was
I've kept it closeted, my choice
You'll only know if I let you know
My honor, life, my voice
I get to live with this, and so
8 months pass since August and it’s undetectable
Healthy, body, healthy mind, honestly respectable
A gift from me to you, in case the thought arises
“It” has no face, race discrimination. Protect yourself!
“It” comes in different shapes and sizes
I own my past, my present, got no feelings to forgive
And I'm not ashamed to say that I'm HIV Positive!